Monday, September 19, 2011
Super annoying FRUSTRATIONS!!
Is this what I get for being with someone who has had a child with a previous woman!?
Big plans for Vegas to celebrate me Fiances birthday! Can't wait! It's the trip we've been waiting for to get away and relax! Think nothing of work, or problems here at home! Always thinking about our little girl but knowing she'd be in good hands. Hotel has been paid and booked. Plans for a big Birthday dinner, and a full day of site seeing and laying by the pool with a large cocktail in our hands! Seems too good to be true right!? Two parents trying to get away....it was toooo easy....Needless to say my frustration at my fiance for putting off calling The Child Support Department became a reality oooooooh about a week ago when they WIPED out our bank account...and can you guess what time of the month this was at?! Ah yes, The time of month when Utility bills and RENT is due. Can you guess again what happened?!! Well a couple of days ago we got a notice in the mail from the bank stating all these overdrafts charges and returned checks....in this same pile of mail there was a letter from child support stating that they TOOK all that was in that account.....SO not only did our Utility bills NOT get paid but neither did our rent. SO We have to come up with money for rent...AGAIN...Did I mention I JUST started work and that my paycheck is ooooooooh about 200 a week which will barely cover my OWN bills let alone RENT! To conclude this rant....if we don't pay our rent asap we will be KICKED OUT! Needless to say my already high stress level is now through the roof and beyond. Not to mention our VERY much needed vacation will no longer take place.
When my Fiance gets home this Momma will be having a very strong cocktail and she will be having a VERY LONG conversation with her Fiance to figure out what the hell we are going to do.
Big plans for Vegas to celebrate me Fiances birthday! Can't wait! It's the trip we've been waiting for to get away and relax! Think nothing of work, or problems here at home! Always thinking about our little girl but knowing she'd be in good hands. Hotel has been paid and booked. Plans for a big Birthday dinner, and a full day of site seeing and laying by the pool with a large cocktail in our hands! Seems too good to be true right!? Two parents trying to get away....it was toooo easy....Needless to say my frustration at my fiance for putting off calling The Child Support Department became a reality oooooooh about a week ago when they WIPED out our bank account...and can you guess what time of the month this was at?! Ah yes, The time of month when Utility bills and RENT is due. Can you guess again what happened?!! Well a couple of days ago we got a notice in the mail from the bank stating all these overdrafts charges and returned checks....in this same pile of mail there was a letter from child support stating that they TOOK all that was in that account.....SO not only did our Utility bills NOT get paid but neither did our rent. SO We have to come up with money for rent...AGAIN...Did I mention I JUST started work and that my paycheck is ooooooooh about 200 a week which will barely cover my OWN bills let alone RENT! To conclude this rant....if we don't pay our rent asap we will be KICKED OUT! Needless to say my already high stress level is now through the roof and beyond. Not to mention our VERY much needed vacation will no longer take place.
When my Fiance gets home this Momma will be having a very strong cocktail and she will be having a VERY LONG conversation with her Fiance to figure out what the hell we are going to do.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
More Hands
I wish on days like today I had more hands!!
My Fiance is golfing this morning and who knows when he'll be back. My plans for the day were to clean our apartment from top to bottom! Every base board, every dusty surface! Unfortunately, when our little girl wakes up I have to put all cleaning on hold to tend to her...not that I don't love too...it's just my momentum is then slowed and it takes me twice as long to clean...now...if my Fiance was here I'd be grateful if he tended to her and I continued to clean but.....that's not case...this is when I'd love to have more arms and hands, or just more of me!
People weren't kidding when they say children are exhausting!! I don't know how single parents do it! Even though the last 3 days that's how I've felt because my Fiance has been on call for work so it's just been me and the baby...which needless to say, I'm EXHAUSTED!! Today isn't helping either....
Well there's my rant. Off to the baby I go...
My Fiance is golfing this morning and who knows when he'll be back. My plans for the day were to clean our apartment from top to bottom! Every base board, every dusty surface! Unfortunately, when our little girl wakes up I have to put all cleaning on hold to tend to her...not that I don't love too...it's just my momentum is then slowed and it takes me twice as long to clean...now...if my Fiance was here I'd be grateful if he tended to her and I continued to clean but.....that's not case...this is when I'd love to have more arms and hands, or just more of me!
People weren't kidding when they say children are exhausting!! I don't know how single parents do it! Even though the last 3 days that's how I've felt because my Fiance has been on call for work so it's just been me and the baby...which needless to say, I'm EXHAUSTED!! Today isn't helping either....
Well there's my rant. Off to the baby I go...
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Boredom?
Yes, I hate to even say it. The last week or so I have been BORED out of my mind when the baby goes down for her naps! I can't seem to keep myself occupied!! I've cleaned and cleaned and cleaned! I don't want to clean anymore!
I need a hobby is what I've realized! I have ALL these wants, but I just haven't gotten around to doing them! I wanted to start making my own baby head bands. Haven't done it. I wanted to start baking. Haven't done it. I'd love to start sewing or knitting. I need to re-learn that. I keep saying I'll do these things, but never end up doing them or never finish what I start! I need to just buckle down and do it!! I'm thinking once I go back to work and get my first pay check I will head down to Micheals craft store and get some material!
I wish planning parties weren't so expensive! I'd have a party every weekend if I could!! New theme each time : ) Sadly I can't! Perhaps people will let me plan parties for them!! That would be amazing! I would prefer kids parties! They are so much more fun to design! Not to mention it would give me some practice for when Eva Mae has parties!!
So September is going to be my magical month of getting a hobby! Wish me luck!
I need a hobby is what I've realized! I have ALL these wants, but I just haven't gotten around to doing them! I wanted to start making my own baby head bands. Haven't done it. I wanted to start baking. Haven't done it. I'd love to start sewing or knitting. I need to re-learn that. I keep saying I'll do these things, but never end up doing them or never finish what I start! I need to just buckle down and do it!! I'm thinking once I go back to work and get my first pay check I will head down to Micheals craft store and get some material!
I wish planning parties weren't so expensive! I'd have a party every weekend if I could!! New theme each time : ) Sadly I can't! Perhaps people will let me plan parties for them!! That would be amazing! I would prefer kids parties! They are so much more fun to design! Not to mention it would give me some practice for when Eva Mae has parties!!
So September is going to be my magical month of getting a hobby! Wish me luck!
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Struggles
I have my opinions with certain things. I struggle with realizing that people view the world differently and that they bend rules more easily. I definitly can only bend so much...
My whole world is Eva Mae, Dustin and my family. There's nothing I wouldn't do for them. It's hard to watch when something or someone has a situation where you think that love is a big part of their life, and then realize that maybe it was just a mirage. I came to realize sometimes you just have to walk away make sure I am NOT apart of something I myself would NEVER do!
My whole world is Eva Mae, Dustin and my family. There's nothing I wouldn't do for them. It's hard to watch when something or someone has a situation where you think that love is a big part of their life, and then realize that maybe it was just a mirage. I came to realize sometimes you just have to walk away make sure I am NOT apart of something I myself would NEVER do!
Friday, August 12, 2011
New Adventures
Having a baby has been truely amazing. I never thought you could love something so much! My little girl is 4 months and is my world! Her first month and a half of life was exciting and scary...Her being in the hospital for 9 days at only 3 weeks old was the hardest thing I think I will ever go through. No one wants to see their child being hooked up to machines, poked and in pain. I'm thankful that we got through that hard time. She is now thriving at 12lbs 7oz 23 1/2 inches! Her smiles melt my heart each day. Even through the screaming and crying I can't help but love her more and more. With everyday my life changes and she changes.
It has been busy though! On top of her doctors appointments and dealing with insurance companies, I am planning my wedding! It's been tough trying to stay within our budget! $5,000 I'm coming to realize isn't very much...but we're trying to make it work! I never knew how stressful it can be! I'm trying to have fun with it...but knowing our struggles with money and myself not working yet it's a little hard to set anything in stone just yet. Septemeber 1st, 2012 I feel is just around the corner...SO much needs to be done still...well EVERYTHING needs to be done still...except the cake. Oddly enough that's the first thing we got taken care of. One of our close friends is actually paying for it. I am so thankful for her.
As of now I'm just taking life day by day and seeing where it takes me next...Hopefully this blog will let me tell about my new experiences as a New Mom...and soon to be New Wife : )
It has been busy though! On top of her doctors appointments and dealing with insurance companies, I am planning my wedding! It's been tough trying to stay within our budget! $5,000 I'm coming to realize isn't very much...but we're trying to make it work! I never knew how stressful it can be! I'm trying to have fun with it...but knowing our struggles with money and myself not working yet it's a little hard to set anything in stone just yet. Septemeber 1st, 2012 I feel is just around the corner...SO much needs to be done still...well EVERYTHING needs to be done still...except the cake. Oddly enough that's the first thing we got taken care of. One of our close friends is actually paying for it. I am so thankful for her.
As of now I'm just taking life day by day and seeing where it takes me next...Hopefully this blog will let me tell about my new experiences as a New Mom...and soon to be New Wife : )
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